It feels odd or a bit paradoxical, doesn't it, that sometimes the feelings are manageable while we're coasting by the issues, but once the lid comes off the box everything seems worse? I have things I'm unpacking right now too and I'm often surprised at the grief and anger that comes billowing up out of my being. I watch it fly out of me with astonishment and, eventually, a sense of relief - better out than in. It is courageous work and, if one can be proud of an internet friend, I'm proud of you, Charlie, for sticking with it.
Thank you so much for sharing this, Charlie. I'm so proud of you. It is not easy work at all, and your courage is nothing short of incredible. You've got this! 💪🏻❤️
🫂🫂🫂 I don't have too much to say apart from (in the most supportive way) really, truly well done for doing the work, for continuing and for being brave. It is all the things you've said and it's by no means easy.
"In fact, it is only when I am sitting with my therapist that I can put words to my feelings and experiences. Each week I wait for that fifty minute window to dig a little deeper and understand a little more about myself." - Same, same, same.
I wish you comfort, peace, additional strength and please know even in the darkest times you're not alone, even when it feels like it (I'm telling myself this too) ❤️
“My subconscious is always processing what I’ve uncovered which requires so much grounding and regulating work to ensure I don’t spiral away.”
1000% relate to this- to the point that I’ve seriously slowed down my personal deep dives. It requires so much emotional work, and I’m also trying to heal that last bit of burnout and live life day to day. It’s hard to find the energy or desire to spend my energy on it.
Hi Charlie, I’m with you when it comes to your experiences here. Thanks again for putting this into words. It’s very helpful for me to feel less alone in my own journey.
If you don’t mind me sharing, I’ve recently combined somatic experiencing with talk therapy and it’s been a game changer for me. As much as I love talk therapy - and am training to become a councillor - the sense of overwhelm I’ve only recently understood I’m generally living with can make therapy, the feelings afterwards and between sessions, and how I am/am not able to make sense of what I’m learning difficult to process and even build on/hold onto. If you’re curious and have the energy I’d very much recommend looking up somatic experiencing. I also find the Trauma Geek’s work on FB illuminating.
Wanted to share a few of my finds because you help me with your sharing. Sending you love too, Gayle
It feels odd or a bit paradoxical, doesn't it, that sometimes the feelings are manageable while we're coasting by the issues, but once the lid comes off the box everything seems worse? I have things I'm unpacking right now too and I'm often surprised at the grief and anger that comes billowing up out of my being. I watch it fly out of me with astonishment and, eventually, a sense of relief - better out than in. It is courageous work and, if one can be proud of an internet friend, I'm proud of you, Charlie, for sticking with it.
Thank you so much for sharing this, Charlie. I'm so proud of you. It is not easy work at all, and your courage is nothing short of incredible. You've got this! 💪🏻❤️
🫂🫂🫂 I don't have too much to say apart from (in the most supportive way) really, truly well done for doing the work, for continuing and for being brave. It is all the things you've said and it's by no means easy.
"In fact, it is only when I am sitting with my therapist that I can put words to my feelings and experiences. Each week I wait for that fifty minute window to dig a little deeper and understand a little more about myself." - Same, same, same.
I wish you comfort, peace, additional strength and please know even in the darkest times you're not alone, even when it feels like it (I'm telling myself this too) ❤️
“My subconscious is always processing what I’ve uncovered which requires so much grounding and regulating work to ensure I don’t spiral away.”
1000% relate to this- to the point that I’ve seriously slowed down my personal deep dives. It requires so much emotional work, and I’m also trying to heal that last bit of burnout and live life day to day. It’s hard to find the energy or desire to spend my energy on it.
Hi Charlie, I’m with you when it comes to your experiences here. Thanks again for putting this into words. It’s very helpful for me to feel less alone in my own journey.
If you don’t mind me sharing, I’ve recently combined somatic experiencing with talk therapy and it’s been a game changer for me. As much as I love talk therapy - and am training to become a councillor - the sense of overwhelm I’ve only recently understood I’m generally living with can make therapy, the feelings afterwards and between sessions, and how I am/am not able to make sense of what I’m learning difficult to process and even build on/hold onto. If you’re curious and have the energy I’d very much recommend looking up somatic experiencing. I also find the Trauma Geek’s work on FB illuminating.
Wanted to share a few of my finds because you help me with your sharing. Sending you love too, Gayle